I find it hard to believe it's been a whole year since my friend passed away from cancer. I sit back and think about all the ups and downs of life that I went through with him.
I remember the downs of hearing the cancer got worse and watching my friend suffer from seizures that came at any time and often came several times in a single day. The times we both talked about various things that upset us about our families or life in general. The gut wrenching realization we both had that the clock of time was running out and neither of us could stop it.
I remember the ups of us celebrating his many releases from the hospital after another chemotherapy treatment or any other issue along the way. Throwing birthday parties celebrating not only the new year but his birthday as well. The group of friends all gathered at his house playing various video games especially the Guitar hero of Rock band games. More often then not competing with each other on scores, who can sing better, or just simply harassing the singer by throwing in stupid phrases.
One of the reason why I write so much about him and value his friendship as much as I do is not only did I care about his physical and mental health he cared about mine. As things started to take a turn for the worst I stayed by his side to help give medicine and be his shoulder of support. While I supported him be became fearful for my mental state given that he knew that once his time was up he would join a list of many others whom I cared for that I've attended funerals for. He knew that many times my mental state is unstable and depression is always right behind me, so many times when he had a psychiatrist over he had me come as well so if he felt the visit wasn't necessary for him I could use it instead. That's what I truly admired about him, not only did he worry for his own health but he worried for those closest to him.
The thing I hope for is that people will have that 1 person in their life that they can lean on, and not only support them but be supported by them. I miss my friend but my loyalty and memory of him is strong in my heart.